I was in the gym today and I just started noticing that muscles do not look like they're there until you use them. My dad was benching 300 pounds on a rubber ball and the whole gym was just staring at him. It's kinda scary how he goes Hulk when he starts really lifting. I need some money so I can blow it off on stupidity. Recklessness is the essence of childhood and I want to take advantage of it before people start staring at me funny... or before I am incarcerated... which ever comes first. My grandmother is down from Florida for two weeks, but she's a clean-a-holic. She throws stuff out if she doesn't like it, she rearranges furniture, she even takes stuff back with her, but for some strange reason, it feels more like home with her. However, when she's teamed up with my mom, there's some sort of field bonus power up thing that goes on between them. The nagging fluid seeps out of their skulls and into mine. Hell on earth. And I wouldn't have it any other way.
- posted by Brandon @ 11:52 PM

 
Exams are done. Never heard a more joyous parenthesis. My body is resonating elation to every being on the planet. I'm literally doing summersaults and backflips as I type because I will explode if I do not relieve myself from some of this euphoria. I have big plans for the summer(right!) and I want to stick to them. First on the list, I gotta sleep for 16 hours straight before it is officially summer. Second, I gotta beat Final Fantasy 10, no matter what. Thirdly, I gotta ENJOY MY SUMMER!!!!!!!!!!

And remeber to update my blog....
- posted by Brandon @ 4:10 PM

 
Not much I can say now; exams are on and I'm hoping I can do pretty well on them. I had my History exam today and flew threw it. Then I got to the essay question and it slowed down, but I think this one will be 80% or higher. Got an IT and Family exam tomorrow and a Music exam Wednesday afternoon and then I'm free. Well actually, I'm getting a job over the summer so I'm not AS free, but at least there's no school.
- posted by Brandon @ 8:21 PM

 
School is over. No finally. Just over. Such a fast year and I'm happy. I crammed a good amount of learning in only 10 months. Now I have final exams on Monday--out of the frypan.... I'm actually not too worried about the exams; I do pretty well on the tests, however, my IT teacher cannot write tests, or speak understandable English to save her life. She's also got some sort of a grudge against me and I resisted throwing her out a window just barely enough to get my point across to her, but she won't listen. She loves to rub people's failures in their faces and chastises anyone who can't speak English properly.

*cough*HYPOCRITE*cough*

I'm actually doing something this summer; getting a job, seeing some friends, making some money. Hopefully I can stick to these plans and have a worthwile summer. My grandmother came from Florida just today....well TECHNICALLY yesterday, and so far it's going pretty well. My grandmother is a control freak and strong as an ox meaning until upto 2 years ago, she could beat me into submission. Now I can hold her away with one hand or pin her on the ground, listening to her scream while I watch T.V. It may sound sadistic, but it's just revenge for a the torture and unfair treatment I'd received from her. Life is truly on the up-and-up now. Hopefully for a while.
- posted by Brandon @ 2:08 AM

 
Playing games at school today on a friend's laptop. God, I'm glad to leave this place. I know I'm gonna miss a lot of people, but I need some time to myself. The year flew by and I'm glad it did, but I've been realizing, when you're a kid, you can't wait for time to go by so you can grow up and make your own decisions. You come into highschool with a matured mind and pick up all these responsibilities and all this stress and you think to yourself, "My childhood is gone. I've spent so much time growing up, I wanna go back." It's a sad truth, but there are things you just gotta live with.

It got me thinking, what would I do if I got my time back? What if I was a giddy 4 year old again with all my time devoted to myself? At first, the material side of me was thinking, "Lottery numbers!", but I'm not so sure. I would just appreciate what I had going for me then and tie up all those loose ends.

I truly gotta meet someone. Not that I'm desperate or anything, but I need more to life, someone to share it with, someone other than family or friends to show I care. Just to be able to hold someone and watch the clouds on a warm summer day. To walk bear foot in the grass with. To talk to on a level that I just couldn't do with family or with sincerity that I just couldn't do with friends. Someone who just makes me feel like they were made for me. And I was made for them.

Whoa...I'm getting deep here....

I've started listening to more songs and more poetry to see what speaks to me. I've found I've become very fond of Robert Lee Frost's paradigm and groups such as Red Hot Chilli Peppers, Gorillaz and Coldplay. Coldplay's lyrics and videos are just great in the sense that they work with my mind and evoke my emotions. The one that's speaking to me now is "The Scientist".

Come up to meet you, Tell you I’m sorry, You don’t know how lovely you are

I had to find you, Tell you I need you, Tell you I set you apart

Tell me your secrets, And ask me your questions, Aww let’s go back to the start

Runnin’ in circles, Comin’ our tails, Heads on the science apart

Nobody said it was easy
It’s such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be this hard
Aww take me back to the start

I was just guessin’, At numbers and figures, Pullin’ the puzzles apart

Questions of science, Science and progress, Do not speak as loud as my heart

Tell me you love me, Come back to haunt me, Oh when I rush to the start

Runnin’ in circles, Chasin’ our tails, Comin’ back as we are

Nobody said it was easy
Aww It’s such a shame for us to part
Nobody said it was easy
No one ever said it would be so hard
I’m goin’ back to the start

Ahhooooooooooooooooo
Ahhooooooooooooooooo
Ahhooooooooooooooooo
Ahhooooooooooooooooo



- posted by Brandon @ 7:02 PM

 
I've been so happy all weekend, it's incredible. I guess I'm still experiencing post ISP elation, but I don't mind; euphoria's nice for a change. Three days left of school. Getting a job during the summer. Can't wait. At the moment, income is a goooood thing. Was talking to a friend today and he's telling me about this fierce hatred he has for people and I it's a complicated matter. I can't help him because he doesn't like pity and will shrug me off, but if I keep my distance he hounds me for not being his friend and not taking him seriously. Sometimes he's downright sadistic and I have no choice but to back off. It may be manic depression or bipolar mood disorder or something, but I can't give up on him, he's my friend.

He is extremely paranoid and believes that the problems with people are that they're jealous. The ironic bit is, he is too. He likes.... a few people and he hates a few people just because his attitude and a roll of the dice made them become friends. It's no secret, he thinks that one person treats the other unfairly, that one is more selfish than the other. He'll tell me and want my opinion, so being a friend, I give him one. He may not like it, but it's my opinion; if you don't want it, don't ask. But too much of a big deal is made about it and before you know it, he's giving me dirty looks, calling me the enemy and trying to rally people against me. It'll be a while before I can break through to him, but I will. I'm too stubborn to give up.
- posted by Brandon @ 6:37 PM

 
Finally finished my history ISP and I'm so glad. I't feels like a giant burden has been lifted off my sholders, going from the 10% ISP to the 15% final exam....Ah nertz.... Well I'm pretty good at tests anyways, and it's only one day. Life is precious, I realize now. I was just talking to a friend I hadn't seen in months and she reminded me what amazing people friends can be. It's kinda tough for me, not that I don't make friends easily, it's just that I've been in the same school since kindergarden and I'm pretty whipped at home, so I can only make friends at school. I don't have the history that most people have and I'm sad for it. My time is lost so I might as well start now, ya know?
- posted by Brandon @ 6:46 PM

 
First post ever. Hmm....feels no different that normal. Lessee, got a history ISP due on Friday and I haven't even started. I really shouldn't procrastinate as much as I do; everyone says I've got so much potential. It's tiring having that rammed down my throat all the time. Maybe I under achieve just to defy everyone which could make some sense. Maybe not.
- posted by Brandon @ 10:32 PM